Two lines!! Two lines on the test!! I couldn't believe my eyes. I mean we'd only done the deed once that month, so quite frankly it was a miracle. Last time it had been months of intrusive tests and painful side effects from the medication, plus the charts, and romance numbing bumping and grinding every other day. But wow, this time none of that and we've still managed to get pregnant. Didn't think we'd have another child, as I couldn't face all the doctors and tests again, plus I'd just turned 40, slim chances at that age.
When I told my husband he didn't really believe me, as like me he thought we'd have an only child. But now we could start imagining life with two children. Our beautiful daughter would have a little brother or sister to grow up with and to play with. We were so lucky and so happy. I was already starting to think about names that would compliment our daughter's name.
I went to see the GP and got booked in with the midwife the following week. All was going well and I felt pretty good. No morning sickness, not like the constant nausea I had for weeks last time.
We shared the news with our parents by giving them a card on Christmas day. Needless to say they were all thrilled.
Spoke too soon, at about 6 weeks I started having diarrhoea every day. Think I preferred the nausea! Exhaustion hit from lack of food being digested and from growing a person. No better after a couple of weeks and last time I'd had anaemia pretty early on, so I thought I'd better get checked out with the doctor. Blood test time.
So results day came and to my surprise no anaemia. I'd felt sure it was that! But no, something worse, abnormal blood sugar level. This meant I'd have to have a fasting blood test and drink a sickly sweet glucose drink, plus sit in the doctors waiting room for 2 hours until the next test. Just what I wanted to do when I was feeling so exhausted. Turned out my blood sugar level was high again.... gestational diabetes! Great, no chocolate or sweet foods until the baby was born. I'm a chocoholic, so not quite sure how I'd manage that one! Do you know how many foods have sugar in them, well when you have to read the labels on everything you buy, you start to realise.
First appointment with the midwife at 11 weeks and 6 days, plus the scan the next day. It'll be time to share the news with friends and extended family soon. So excited!! Midwife happy with everything, so far, so good.
CRAMPS!!! Oh my god, so painful! Not cramps, they're contractions! So much blood..... I sat on the toilet and sobbed, I knew I was losing the baby. We left our daughter with my parents and went to the local A&E. It was a Friday evening, so pretty busy. I couldn't stop crying and I was doubled up in pain, I felt like everyone in the room was watching me. I had to keep going to the public toilet and change my pad because I was losing so much blood and massive clots. I was literally flushing my baby down the toilet piece by piece.
Four hours of sitting in the waiting room.... sobbing.... so much pain.... losing my baby piece by piece....
Finally the doctor saw me, and confirmed the worst. I could curl up on a bed at last.
